Dec. 30, 2013

Thank you so much for your email.  It was really nice to talk to you on christmas and it was uplifting at the same time.  For my first call I think i did a pretty good controlling my homesickness.  I just got a little sad talking with ardie...man i miss that kid and his annoyingness at times.  I still think it is weird that I havent seen him for almost three years :)  I think it is funny that mindy is having a hard time with him and his sarcasm... welsome to the life of kirsten :). That is cool that mindy will visit DC with her roommates (that should be nice to see all of them)  When I visited Mindy in DC that was really fun and I will always remember that trip for the rest of my life and our family california trips (those were really fun.) i still think my heart is in San Fran.  I really like that scripture dad, it is one of my favorites..all we can do is grow in the light of christ day by day and then one day we will arrive to the Perfect day..it realy is quite the promise.  We really do have a lot to smile about and if we only knew what was to come we wouldnt be able to control our excitement.  I think it was stan johnson (the best BOM teacher at BYU) that quoted an apostle and he said something along the lines "if we knew the blessings that are waiting in the heavens for us we wouldnt be able to sleep at night because of the anticipation".  I just hope that one day, little by little, we will be worthy to recieve all of these blessings.  I really do love this gospel and I dont know what I did in the pre-life to have this gospel, to have my family, and to have all of my blessings...we really are soooo blessed.  I feel really blessed to have the heritage that I have.  Sometimes I get a little bit down and I think "wow this is rough, not physically but mentally spiritually and just a lot of responsibility" but then I remember the words of  President Hinckley and I remember Omi, and I remember Jens Nielsen and all of those trials that our family had to endure for the truth and I get a new energy.  We really do have believing blood and I feel blessed to have a heritage so great in the gospel.  

I think it is super crazy that lindsay will have three little boys (that is amazing and will probaby be really hard for her.  They make really cute boys so I am excited to meet him when I get back and am excited to meet little lon (blue eyed baby)  All boys and carolyn sure is different then our family.  Oh and Ardie I am sure that with you going to aubreys wedding it just made her that much sure that her decision is right haha.  And Poor justin haha Oh yeah I remember Billy Fox (he was a good kid) Mom, korean dramas are so popular here it is funny.  Yesterday my comp and I were on our way to the mission liders house and it started raining like crazy (rainy season :( but we got to his door just in time before it got really bad :) and his little three year old was watching Lie to me.  I will admit I really anted to watch it.  But then we waited for the rain to stop and then went to visit our people.  

We are planning baptisms for this saturdaut and we have a lot of support from our bishop pric. But I am worried because I think our converts are having doubts.  They know it true but I think they are angry with us because we couldt take all of them to the activity the other day because there mom need hep washing cothes and so they were a little upset with us (it is confusing and weird) teaching younger peole is always a little hard because you really do need to create a relationship with them first.  I posted pictures from the activity.  We made fruit cake at a members house.  The other pictures of the little boys are younger symbling of the family we are teaching. 

Another hard thing this week is three of my old converts are working in the fields.  They left there daughter at home to look at for the chickens and hens and I had been knocking on the door to see how she has been doing this transfer (she was less active and after she came back to the church with her family and then we baptized her famiily but I havent been seeing her at church since her family left) I was worried but every time we knocked her door no answer and everytime we called her no answer) the other day she came out (she is about 21 yrs old) when we knocked her door.  I asked how she was and said we would visit her on christmas.  Well we visited her the day after christmas and she was drunk and told me everything about her life and all the problems (she was pregnant but then lost her baby and then was beat by her dad when she was younger and then he left and she doesnt want to tell anyone...so as for right now I am the only one who knows) and all of this happened within the last two months :( when she wasnt answering the door.  She has shame and doent want to tell anyone and now she is drinking.  Just super sad.  I was really ticked that she was drinking and drunk because she totally knows better.  ANyways I just dont know what to do about that whole situation. I am the only one she has confidence in..so it is overwhelming. I tried yesterday to visit her with hno lopez to try and get someone else in there who can help her but no answer.  I am telling you the things that keep me awake at night are things that I never thought would ever be on my mind. I feel a super weird feeling when they tell me all of there problems ( I dont quite know how to describe it)  I am learning wisdom beyond my years but I have a feeling after my mission I will not be able to handle the situations that I am handling now with everyone.  I am grateful that heavenly father is helping me.  And am a little sad that I nw understand almost all of the spanish because now I have more responsibility.